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Dear Lord

I wish I was confident enough not to bury the gifts I have but to use them to your glory. I wish I prayed more. Effectual fervent prayers that availeth much. I wish I didn’t doubt your power at times. No matter how much the waves rise against me. I wish making the right choices was easier. I wish the rain could cleanse our hurting land. I wish I was a perfect woman. A perfect sister. A perfect daughter. A perfect girlfriend. A good friend. I wish I was always available, ready to listen when you call. I wish I could save you from yourself. I wish I could save me from myself. I wish there wasn’t a period of waiting between planting and harvesting season. I wish I was a little patient. I wish I could learn to enjoy the rain. I wish to look forward to seeing the rainbow after the storm. I wish I understood what is left unsaid. I wish I could search your eyes and get all the answers.

Sometimes things become possible if we want them bad enough.

T.S. Eliot

I wish life wasn’t as complicated. I wish I didn’t care this much. I wish we could openly talk to our parents about this life thing. I wish we could be ourselves without fear of being judged. I wish I could accept what is not and hope for what could be. I wish I could enjoy today more. Live. Love. Laugh. Dream. Colour outside the lines. I wish for confetti. I wish for sunshine. I wish for flowers. I wish for the smell of coffee every morning. I wish for a burning match to light up my firecrackers. I wish to be able to fully trust You with my life, my all. I wish You could grant me this wish. To love without being hurt. To serve the Saviour. To understand that everything happens for a reason. To rest assured knowing that I am Yours. Hold my hand. Walk this journey with me. On my own I am bound to buckle under the pressure coming from all directions and within. Your will. Your way. My imperfect life. In Jesus’s name I pray,

Owakho who is sabaweling

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